BabyDoll
Feeling super down;( i love you and hate seeing you w her! I thought before it would b u and i i think it hurts cause u lied im so used to it, i shouldnt be hurting this bad over you i just want this pain in feelin to go away Dear Lord hear my cry i just dont wanna hurt over this anymore!
today was the day..:(
its the most hurtful when the one u were w and the girl he cheated w has a baby by him. pretty hurtful but a part of me is really happy for them, idk i guess im just not over it. i hope i will be eventually. on the inside i dont feel fulfilled and i guess i think i needa build my relationship w our heavenly father, im just hurtin so bad and i pretend im fine alot and im very tough but alot bothers me if i can shake it off i would and i dont wanna seem selfish and ungrateful but im human. dear heavenly father help me..thank you
whats in my heart
God is truly good to me. My heart is torn because all the things that have happened to me, but i dont need to play the victim. Im trying to do whats best and trying to stay on the right path..it isnt easyBut i cant give up. I was meant to serve God and to make a difference, theres so many problems in the world that when Jesus comes back i cant wait for him to end all the hurt and pain and come back for his ppl. I think things are hard because im trying to do right. I can be the sweetest person but over the years iv become so mean because im hurting so bad in the inside..i just need to learn how to let go. I miss just being me and being happy i know im blessed but i just need to start by having a smile on my face everyday. ima work at it and continue to build my faith strong where it needs to be because i would be anywhere without Jesus. I smetimes wonder why i dont have any children or anything or why it hasnt happened or why i cant have a good man to love me like my father never has..i really want that. Things will get better i just wish someone could help me get there. Thank you Jesus for everything you have done you are truly worthy to be praised.
